I have decided.

To all the lovelies back home.  I have decided to continue my study at Hillsong College.  It is more than a decision to stay in Australia for the heck of it.  Its nice here, but I would never trade my family for a vacation. It is more of a personal decision to keep growing, and work on myself, to grow my roots deeper.   It has been such a hard decision, I’ve stayed up late thinking how will I tell my sisters and my mom….and I will miss this, and I will miss that, and what about starting my life? Is this a waste? All these questions have ransacked my brain.  But I pray that when I come home, and I am able to speak into your lives, because I have become alive myself, and awakened the parts of me I have buried, and covered, and ignored, that you will see the freedom, and you will see God in me, and you will know that this sacrifice for all of us would have been the right choice.  So just know that I love you guys!  I miss you more than you’ll ever know.  But this is where I am being called right now. Oi…

Love and hugs and more hugs.

Morgie.
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What do I do
when you scream
at me in my dreams
and my tears come harder down.
my heart longs to be with yours
but this sacrifice I purely own
and the glory will be given
every single step of the way
to the one who truly deserves it
to the King with the everlasting crown.

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Challenged to Persevere

In the midst of a storm our minds are busy at work.  We are forming a plan to survive.  Forward or backward, to the right or to the left.  We are forced to move, and the decision is completely ours.
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I have been challenged by my baptism this last week.  It has been a hard, dark week.  Taunted by nightmares, normal blows of life, and hardship.  God is walking me through, but he doesnt force me to do anything, he gives me the free will to make my own choices.

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In my quiet time God reminded me the moment of Sam asking me in the baptism pool, “Why are you getting baptized tonight?”
I responded with “Because I want to serve the Lord my whole life, no matter what happens”.  No matter what happens, I made the decision.

So now on my storm front, I am up against decisions, and I have to decide to follow or fall.
photo I can either fall because I gave up, or I can fall fighting for the name of Jesus.  When I choose to follow him, no matter how hard it hurts, I believe He will lift me back up.  “The only temptation that has come to you is that which everyone has. But you can trust God, who will not permit you to be tempted more than you can stand. But when you are tempted, he will also give you a way to escape so that you will be able to stand it.” (1 Cor 10:13 MSG).
dd73ad2bd86fe21a3b3ee8b07cc87729Friend.  Life is full of storms.  They hurt – this I know.  The waves will knock you down, but they only last a moment.  “So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.” (Rom 12:1-2 MSG).
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This is a hard season but I am holding onto the truth, leaning into the Spirit, and going to immerse myself in the word.  I will overcome & because my words have power I will continue to speak this over my life.  Thank you for your prayers!

Morgie xoxo

Slam Poetry – Overcome

Slam Poetry (thank you – def from Urban Dictionary):

n. A style of spoken word poetry that is generally used in a competition, known as a poetry slam. Often, as with hip-hop music, the subject matter concerns urban life, crime, drugs, or other inner-city-related subjects. The difference in many cases, however, is that with slam poetry, the words/lyrics are more introspective and creative than your run-of-the-mill hit rap song. Also seems influenced by the Beat Poets, such as Allen Ginsberg and Jack Kerouac.

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So many things trying to haunt my house
Add shame
Add guilt
Subtract self worth and kidnap my security too.
Trying to fight what ingredients get thrown in my bowl of life. Darkness robbing my sleep tank.
Don’t wake me when I fall, if I fall asleep.
But I need you to shake me from this nightmare.
The darkness chokes me.
I cry for the sun to come.
I’m done fighting
But I’ve never wanted to fight harder.
Push me down
I’ve already eaten my tears; they’ve been my food day and night. What’s it gonna take to break free of destruction?
The oven. The fire.
It burns the impurities right out of my broken and evil heart.
It refines my soul, my thoughts.
Add health. Zest. Buoyancy. Resilience. Truth.
Add Authentic Love.
Subtract the darkness.

It hurts, a lot. It’s hot. It’s uncomfortable.
Its a beautiful disaster. Its new.
I don’t know if I can take anymore.Then the door opens, New life rushes my lungs.
I can breathe.
I’m free.
I’m finished.
He overcame
So that
I
Could
Overcome.
Whom the Son sets free, he is free
indeed.

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Strong through EVERY Trial.

406804_383769961700996_855137644_nA lyric in a new song at church caused my heart to stop and think a few weeks ago.  The line speaking of our mighty God sang, “strong through every trial”.  The word “trial” stopped me in my worship and suddenly my mind went back to the trial in court that 7 other girls and I had been through almost 5 years ago.

It was a very dark time.  On a worldly level, the man who sexually abused us over many many years got away free and clean.  A couple fines here, some community service there.  On a worldly level, my heart aches, bad.  I felt a huge sense of injustice, and for years there has been a wound of defeat and a lingering fear that he’s still out there; as though our cries for help meant nothing.  But when I heard this song, and was surfing back through the emotions of the trial, the feelings of defeat and the constant flow of pain, it all began to be replaced with the words “strong through every trial”.  My heart was still.

Though we knew the truth of what happened to us, it felt like our eyes were covered to the truth of what was really happening.  No amount of darkness can hide the Lord and his power and his strength and his goodness.  No court case, judge, defending attorney or jurors can say what our God does.  And he wins.  We had the truth, we were set free.  The truth is light.  And the light is God. “The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overpowered it” (John 1:5) Nor will it ever.  The freedom we have is walking in the light and so we are blessed. WE ARE FREE.  The battle was not ours to fight, it was Gods.  In his hands, He replaces our fear with his perfect love.

A huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders.  I feel lighter already. It is not about the justice that man gives on earth.  We keep our eyes heavenward because under His care we are taken care of, in EVERY situation.  No longer do I have to worry about my enemies, “God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever”(ps 73:26).  Every trial, He is strong. Acknowledge him and watch as your chains melt to the ground.  Be set free lovely people.  What more do we need? The victory through HIM is ours. Claim it baby, claim it.

Psalm 85:10
“Love and truth belong to God’s people;
goodness and peace will be theirs.”

Psalm 34:13-15
keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from telling lies.
Turn from evil and do good;
SEEK peace and pursue it.
The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
and his ears are attentive, to their cry;

Proverbs 3:3
Don’t ever forget kindness and truth. Wear them like a necklace. Write them on your heart as if on a tablet.

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You’ve Been Love Bombed: Georgina Grace

George! I’ve never met anyone like you.  I love imitating your accent.  You are an amazing artist, an amazing friend, and gifted beyond measure.  I can’t wait to see where life will take you.  You are an answer to prayer! Thank you for being in my life while I am across the world 🙂 Can’t wait to make music with you! Keep going, God is going to use you in AMAZING ways 🙂

She’s a tip of an iceberg.
She has so many treasure that was given by God.
She didn’t just bury that but she’s developing and using for God’s glory.  Eventually, God will say “Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!”  She’s special =) ~Daniel Choi

I love her tender heart, I love that she loves those who are hurting and down trodden, I love that she is strong and speaks words of wisdom and power. I love that she pulls funny faces. I love that she is beautiful but doesn’t know it. And above all I love that she is my daughter and I am so very proud of her, proud that she bravely follows hard after God even if that looks scary and unknown. And I also love that she knows how I am without being told. How could you not love that?
Be beautiful my dear child, put one foot in front of the other, one step at a time… Trusting God all the time. And He will unfold your way.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, he will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” (Zephaniah 3:17 NLT)
~Mum

Gina is beautiful inside and out. She is so creative and is so sensitive to the Holy Spirit. She is a mighty warrior princess for Jesus a intercessor to the max. And she is a loyal friend 😀:D
~Jackie French

Georgina Kent, I have never met anybody like her. Her short hair was the first thing that draw me to her, but after a while I knew that it was way more then just that. Gina is creative, an amazing artist on paper but also with music. She is a special woman in the things she likes and dislikes, she is firm in what she believes in, and she is willing to teach and share with others. The thing that is probably the most beautiful about her is her sensitive relationship with God, in every conversation you can see who’s she is, and her life is a testimony that our God is alive and good.=)
~Nina Verhoog

You’ve Been Love Bombed: Mom Edition


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f you missed out! JUST COMMENT BELOW WITH YOUR LOVE BOMB FOR:

KIM SAUNDERS

Kim is the sweetest and kindest person. I remember sharing something very personal with her not too long ago and she was so loving and comforting and loves me no matter what. She is a loving mother and grandmother. Also, going to school and working full time is so hard, yet she continues to perservere. Keep up the great work, Kim.
~Russ Nichol

I have always loved about your mom. I first met her when I was in the 8th grade when we first moved to Carmichael, and then she started attending Victory Christian School in high school. But she was always in my Sunday School class so I got to know her. She always, always was kind to the under dog. She was very popular, everyone loved her but she also never excluded anyone, whether or not they were popular or not. I always felt like your mom truly was a friend. I don’t know if you know but she was my matron of honor at my wedding. Always kind to me and those around her. I remember one birthday she invited me to, I didn’t have much money and she told me she loved Dorritoes and so that is what I got her, a simple bad of Dorritoes yet she was so thankful. We all went to the flea market and had a fun time. Then when it was my sweet sixteen, I wasn’t very popular she gave me a sweet sixteen party, just a few gals but she always was kind to others.
~Becky Stover Manthei

Mom-
You are such a dedicated and hard working person and are always wiling to help in any way u can. You are also the best grandma to my kids that I could ask for, and I am so thankful that I live so close. -~Meg

Kim-I love that you have not given up during some of the most difficult struggles anyone should havt to face. I miss you so much and wish that we were not so far apart. You will be richly blessed in so many ways, just keep taking baby steps forward and never look back! You will always be one of my most beloved best friends!
I love you Kim!!!
~Kellie Powers

What I love most about your mom is no matter how long its been since we’ve seen each other or talked on the phone, we can pick up where we left off. Her encouragement through the hardest time in my life made me feel love when I felt very little. It was an honor to raise our kids together. When I think of Kim, I can’t help but smile because the times we shared over the years make me that happy.
~Darin Brink

 

Mom, I love you! I want you to know you are loved and people FEEL the love you bring.  You are a light to people’s lives.  I am so thankful to be your daughter.  I am proud to be your daughter.  You are fun to live life with.  I love you!

Who will be Love Bombed Next? You will have to wait and see!