Sisters

Whom the Son sets free, is free indeed.

You see, I believe that Jesus died for me.  Why? Because He loved me.  Because I had sin in my life, and as a child of God, he wanted me back.  This separation from him is real, but now its gone.  And when I got baptized in water, it  meant that I had died to my old life and risen with a new life in Him, beautiful symbolism.  I decided that no matter what happened, I would live my life for Him. He has given me life in more ways than one.  But he didn’t just die for me.  He died for everyone.  He died for you.

So today, I want to do something (not on my own, but with His help, as if I was holding his hand) that set some people free, because he didn’t just die for me, he died for the people that hurt me too.

I want to forgive the man that sexually abused me. I want him to know that he has been forgiven.

There is no way I could do this just as Morgan.  I am forgiving him because of Jesus and in Jesus name and with the help of Jesus.  And there is power in his name, which allows me to write this out.

So I pray he finds this post below:

I want to say I forgive you for the pain you caused me, when I realized what you had done to me over many years was wrong.  When the truth hit my mind, I suddenly found myself in an exhaustible cycle of pain.  I had a hard time in school, and I had a hard time living, and I’m still unwinding the damage, but even so, I forgive you.  I want to forgive you for the damage you caused in my relationships with my sister and cousins and best friends.  We lost some precious years because we were on a journey of pain, walking through unmerited shame, with broken down boundaries .  I want to forgive you for what you made us go through in court, it was a taste of hell on earth for all of us, but I forgive you.  I want to forgive you for the pain you caused my family.  The pain you especially caused my parents, because it trickled down to the rest of us, and it wasn’t their fault.  I want to forgive you for the guilt my parents felt when they thought they didn’t protect us, that was your fault, but I want to forgive you for it. I want to forgive you  for the damage you caused my mind when you lied to me, I forgive you for the inability I have to trust others, because of all the trust you broke with us.  I forgive you for not standing up and telling the truth about what happened.  And I also want to forgive your wife who hurt me by staying with you while we lived under the abuse.  I forgive you for the time I lost with her.  You are forgiven.  The end.  No resentment, no grudge.  I want to be set free like I was intended to, and I was nudged by God as he reminded me that you are equally his child and didn’t deserve this freedom either, but he still gave it to us.  You are still a child of God, but you need to accept His forgiveness, and be set free.  As much as my flesh wants to hate you forever, because I write this through my tears, the enemy has been defeated and I am called to forgive, as I have been forgiven.  So I hope you are set free from the chains the enemy has placed on you, let us deny the enemy his pleasure.  I declare you free in the name of Jesus and by his blood, be set free.  God meets us half way, he doesn’t force anything on us.  He gave us a choice.  I pray that you walk the other half, he is waiting!   Amen.
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Morgan

Chains Be Broken.

I feel a new freedom I’ve never felt before.  A healing I could not have imagined.  I don’t believe that the healing is complete, but I already feel like a new person. I’ve tasted it, and I want more.  I feel like there were chains restraining me for most of my life.  Maybe from the sexual abuse I experienced from an early age on till about age 17.  A significant amount of damage and defense mechanisms were created during that time, and especially after.  How many people in this world are having a hard season, but are actually just in bondage from this broken world?

God removed me from my homemade comfort zone of unhealthy thinking and habits to show me that HE is actually my comfort zone.  In Him I have found freedom.  “and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free” (John 8:32).

So maybe it took a move across the Pacific Ocean, but my life will never be the same, so the sacrifice of this difficult distance will be worth it, I know.  I will be able to love more freely, because no longer will the enemy be able to restrain me and keep me in a cycle of darkness. I am getting stronger each day.

  Since my time here, and it has gone by speedily, my memory has improved.  I am able to comprehend and remember what I am learning, for what seems like the first time in my life.  My mind is being healed.  My mind is not trying to block memories.  Instead it is unraveling them, and they are hard things, but in return I am experiencing complete restoration – a necessary journey for growth to happen.

I want to thank you all for your encouragement, letters, packages, support, prayers, and emails.  Each contact from home feels like there is a crowd cheering me on.  It has not been easy, but God uses you all to keep me fueled and going.  He is allowing me to learn to fully depend on Him, this semester in my finances (which is new for me!).  My time here is being funded on sponsors alone.  I felt very strongly that I was not meant to get a job, stepping out of another comfort zone.  I have supported myself for the last 5 years.  Now I look Heavenward for every need.  And needs are being met, daily.  God keeps blowing me away, like when three bags of summer clothes are passed on to us, or a meal is provided out of nowhere.

At this point 50% of my rent is covered by sponsors.  I cannot see where the missing money will come in from, but I am walking in the truth that it will come.  God is faithful, “if we are faithless, he remains faithful” (2 Timothy 2:13).  God did not work out every little detail for me to come here, to fail me.  He told me that he would provide the money, and even if it came at the last second it was coming.  So I walk by faith and not what I perceive with my own ideas, eyes, and thoughts.

I am so blessed to be here!  Thank you for standing by me in this crazy Aussie journey.  I wanted to introduce you to two new members of my family.  The first is my wonderful boyfriend, Brian Altizer (Cali boy) J.  Today is our one-month anniversary, and he has been the biggest blessing to my life.  He is constantly pointing me back to God, and encouraging me.  It feels like he’s been on this entire Hillsong journey with me even though he lives across the big blue!

I also want to introduce you to my sisters BEAUTIFUL new baby boy, Vhayde.  He came in at 9 lbs 3 oz during my spring break, so I had the ability to Skype into the hospital adventure and meet the sweet pea.  My sis is home and doing well.  Love you all! Miss you!

~Seeking the Lord’s will with my time here as I move towards a visit home for Christmas~

Hugs,

Morgie

ps- I think I will be a whole new lady when I get home 🙂 Can’t wait to see you all ❤

June Update!

Dear Family,
I am leaving the states on July 16th!  My flight has been booked to leave at 10:45pm out of San Francisco.  I am glad it is a late flight, I pray that I am so exhausted that I can sleep on the flight and turn off my thinker.  Lately God has been so awesome, using people like you constantly to get me to Hillsong.  The other night I came home late to an envelope with a new sponsor. After opening the letter, I just sat there and stared at it, for like 5 minutes.  This unraveling of his plan is amazing to me.  God is using you all in different ways.  Some of you financially, some of you for encouragement, and others for prayer.  None of these jobs are greater than the other, because combined they are lifting me up to have the courage and strength to move across the world.

Madi graduated from CRHS on June 5th. Kissing Mckenzie (who tore her ACL moments prior to this shot!!)

I look forward to what God is really preparing me for.  It is very hard at times, I am excited, and sad at the same time.  One foot in front of the other? Thank you for pushing me!
Some cool things that have happened lately:

  • Applied for a student visa on June 4th.  This process can take up to 3 months.  Procastinating? Maybe, but there was a $500 application fee.  Checked my application status about 5 minutes later…APPROVED. 5 minutes people. Amazing.
  • Flight.  I have been searching flights for a while.  Watching the prices go up weekly, I kept looking for a good deal, but did not have the money I needed.  My prayer was that God would bring the money at just the right time for the exact flight I was supposed to be on.  Maybe the day the money came I would also land on a great deal? Trusting him little by little.  June 6th a family friend used some major travel points and booked my flight.  I am paying 40% of what I thought I would have to spend.  Chills. Two days later the flight money came through a donor.  More chills.  I cannot give the glory to anybody but God, cause I know he orchestrates things like that.  He lifts weights off our shoulders that we carry around.  My advice – give it to Him daily, ask him over and over.  Do not feel like an annoying pest, he enjoys having a relationship with you 🙂

    What I will be experiencing in ONE month!

  • My bunco ladies….Yes I play bunco once a month 🙂 With some of the sweetest ladies.  They really touched me during my last bunco session.  The asked to pray for me after we were done.  One prayer that really stood out to me was that they prayed for there to be a special friend over there waiting to meet me.  I obviously considered meeting new friends, but for them to pray that there would a special person over there that would connect with me, I felt so blessed! I can’t wait to introduce you all to this friend 🙂 Maybe one of my roommates?  Gosh, as I write this it sounds like a guy is over there haha.  But let me clarify, they were praying for a girl that I would connect with. 🙂 lol.
    I really cannot thank you all enough.  I feel like in a way I’ll be taking you all with me 🙂  Can’t wait to send you AUS mail!

A few prayer requests for this month:
-God will prepare my heart to be away from all my family and friends while I am gone for a year.
-I will be able to stay connected with my dear Getty Owl Foundation family while gone (www.GettyOwl.org) — I am on the board of directors.
-God will bring in the final touches of Gene Therapy for the cure for SMA this year (Yes! It is happening!)
-God will watch over Getty and her family and provide them with a wonderful photographer while I am gone.
-God will continue to provide my financial needs for this year in Australia.
-I can see a chiropractor for my back before I go on a 14 hour flight.
-God will BLESS all of you for being my support!

Love & Hugs.
Morgie

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Meg turned 25 on June 11th 🙂

“Monkey-Leech” as I did my hair 🙂 Love this boy.

Kenzie found true love. #photobomb

Axxie turned ONE!! June 10th 🙂

Miss Marley (niece) turned 6 months old 🙂

Axxie’s first trip to Monterey – Now a big one year old!

babysitting ❤

Devin’s 6th Grade Graduation – Green Oaks El.

Getty! – My breathtaking little sister who is fighting SMA. http://www.GettyOwl.org

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Bok’s House for Dinner.

Met up in Auburn with my other mom, Lisa.  We were just getting together, kind of celebrating Lisa’s birthday, but kind  of just getting together.  So happy that my sister and brother (inlaw) came.  And of course they brought there wittle babies, who bring me such joy. We barbecued some meat and had some salad.  It was good food and good talks and good friends.

I know I look like a piece, but I liked how Axxie was looking at me.

Hey sister, soul sister.

So Miss Getty turned 1 last Friday.  All I have to say to that is PRAISE the Lord.  I was reading a statistic last week that said, “30% of SMA babies make it to their first birthday, and 15% make it to their second”.  I am not okay with this! But Getty is winning her battle right now.  So we must fight harder to find the cure for SMA.  Here is a picture of my little sista on her birthday:
On Tuesday, my beloved Auntie Ang turned 26.  In her birthday card I let her know, I am not sure how she came out as my Aunt, because surely I view her as a sister! So another happy birthday to Angie! You are not old dear girl! We are still below 30! Here is a picture of us when we were just little gals:

Me at age 2?, Meg-4, Ang-6. Who is that baby??

And another Happy Birthday shout out to my DEAR sis Kenzie 🙂 She has been my twin since she was born 🙂 She looked quite lovely at her birthday dinner, but unfortunately (just like me) was sick on her birthday 😦 Get better Konce! By the way, she has always been my favorite model to shoot….why? BECAUSE SHE’S BEAUTIFUL 🙂 🙂 Love you sis! Happy Birthday and welcome to your Twenty’s baby!

What happens in Vegas…for me-can be blogged :)

So instead of getting ready for bed, I am going to quickly recap my trip to Vegas!  We started the drive a little late last Friday and began driving at 4 pm.  We got to the Hard Rock Hotel at 2:30 in the morning, which was apparently a prime time to be awake and partying.  I was very happy when we were able to shut and lock our hotel room door and just snooze.  Maddie’s team played at 2 pm the next day.  I was a bit tired Saturday, but we got to sleep ALOT on Sunday morning so I was more caught up.  Monday we had to check out, but the hotel wasn’t accepting cash at the time so I drove Maddie 45 minutes to her tournament, 45 min back to the hotel just to check out, then 45 minutes back to the school she was playing at.  My day started at 6:30 am.  After she was done with her games I tried to find the MnM store for us to visit real quickly, but our GPS hated us and we just got lost and confused.  I was ultra tired at this point so I decided we should chillax at a Starbucks for a half hour so I could fuel up and just relax before the next 10 hours, or so I thought.  To make a long story short, the first half of the trip was spent in bumper to bumper traffic until we cleared Bakersfield so Maddie and I had a couple extra stops here and there.  Here are the pictures we got 🙂

In the middle of nowhere. Self Timer - Nikon D50

Just being cool - Self Timer Nikon D50

Here's for Getty girl (wanna sponsor me?)

Trying to cause trouble to stay out of trouble. Oh Vegas.

Sisters...Loving the time we shared! Self Timer-Nikon D50

I didn’t make it home til 4 am on Tuesday.  Just saying for someone who has fallen asleep on the road during a 2 hour trip, I was proud of myself for setting a new record and growing to be a long distance driver!