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Whom the Son sets free, is free indeed.

You see, I believe that Jesus died for me.  Why? Because He loved me.  Because I had sin in my life, and as a child of God, he wanted me back.  This separation from him is real, but now its gone.  And when I got baptized in water, it  meant that I had died to my old life and risen with a new life in Him, beautiful symbolism.  I decided that no matter what happened, I would live my life for Him. He has given me life in more ways than one.  But he didn’t just die for me.  He died for everyone.  He died for you.

So today, I want to do something (not on my own, but with His help, as if I was holding his hand) that set some people free, because he didn’t just die for me, he died for the people that hurt me too.

I want to forgive the man that sexually abused me. I want him to know that he has been forgiven.

There is no way I could do this just as Morgan.  I am forgiving him because of Jesus and in Jesus name and with the help of Jesus.  And there is power in his name, which allows me to write this out.

So I pray he finds this post below:

I want to say I forgive you for the pain you caused me, when I realized what you had done to me over many years was wrong.  When the truth hit my mind, I suddenly found myself in an exhaustible cycle of pain.  I had a hard time in school, and I had a hard time living, and I’m still unwinding the damage, but even so, I forgive you.  I want to forgive you for the damage you caused in my relationships with my sister and cousins and best friends.  We lost some precious years because we were on a journey of pain, walking through unmerited shame, with broken down boundaries .  I want to forgive you for what you made us go through in court, it was a taste of hell on earth for all of us, but I forgive you.  I want to forgive you for the pain you caused my family.  The pain you especially caused my parents, because it trickled down to the rest of us, and it wasn’t their fault.  I want to forgive you for the guilt my parents felt when they thought they didn’t protect us, that was your fault, but I want to forgive you for it. I want to forgive you  for the damage you caused my mind when you lied to me, I forgive you for the inability I have to trust others, because of all the trust you broke with us.  I forgive you for not standing up and telling the truth about what happened.  And I also want to forgive your wife who hurt me by staying with you while we lived under the abuse.  I forgive you for the time I lost with her.  You are forgiven.  The end.  No resentment, no grudge.  I want to be set free like I was intended to, and I was nudged by God as he reminded me that you are equally his child and didn’t deserve this freedom either, but he still gave it to us.  You are still a child of God, but you need to accept His forgiveness, and be set free.  As much as my flesh wants to hate you forever, because I write this through my tears, the enemy has been defeated and I am called to forgive, as I have been forgiven.  So I hope you are set free from the chains the enemy has placed on you, let us deny the enemy his pleasure.  I declare you free in the name of Jesus and by his blood, be set free.  God meets us half way, he doesn’t force anything on us.  He gave us a choice.  I pray that you walk the other half, he is waiting!   Amen.
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Morgan

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Strong through EVERY Trial.

406804_383769961700996_855137644_nA lyric in a new song at church caused my heart to stop and think a few weeks ago.  The line speaking of our mighty God sang, “strong through every trial”.  The word “trial” stopped me in my worship and suddenly my mind went back to the trial in court that 7 other girls and I had been through almost 5 years ago.

It was a very dark time.  On a worldly level, the man who sexually abused us over many many years got away free and clean.  A couple fines here, some community service there.  On a worldly level, my heart aches, bad.  I felt a huge sense of injustice, and for years there has been a wound of defeat and a lingering fear that he’s still out there; as though our cries for help meant nothing.  But when I heard this song, and was surfing back through the emotions of the trial, the feelings of defeat and the constant flow of pain, it all began to be replaced with the words “strong through every trial”.  My heart was still.

Though we knew the truth of what happened to us, it felt like our eyes were covered to the truth of what was really happening.  No amount of darkness can hide the Lord and his power and his strength and his goodness.  No court case, judge, defending attorney or jurors can say what our God does.  And he wins.  We had the truth, we were set free.  The truth is light.  And the light is God. “The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overpowered it” (John 1:5) Nor will it ever.  The freedom we have is walking in the light and so we are blessed. WE ARE FREE.  The battle was not ours to fight, it was Gods.  In his hands, He replaces our fear with his perfect love.

A huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders.  I feel lighter already. It is not about the justice that man gives on earth.  We keep our eyes heavenward because under His care we are taken care of, in EVERY situation.  No longer do I have to worry about my enemies, “God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever”(ps 73:26).  Every trial, He is strong. Acknowledge him and watch as your chains melt to the ground.  Be set free lovely people.  What more do we need? The victory through HIM is ours. Claim it baby, claim it.

Psalm 85:10
“Love and truth belong to God’s people;
goodness and peace will be theirs.”

Psalm 34:13-15
keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from telling lies.
Turn from evil and do good;
SEEK peace and pursue it.
The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
and his ears are attentive, to their cry;

Proverbs 3:3
Don’t ever forget kindness and truth. Wear them like a necklace. Write them on your heart as if on a tablet.

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You’ve Been Love Bombed: Mom Edition


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f you missed out! JUST COMMENT BELOW WITH YOUR LOVE BOMB FOR:

KIM SAUNDERS

Kim is the sweetest and kindest person. I remember sharing something very personal with her not too long ago and she was so loving and comforting and loves me no matter what. She is a loving mother and grandmother. Also, going to school and working full time is so hard, yet she continues to perservere. Keep up the great work, Kim.
~Russ Nichol

I have always loved about your mom. I first met her when I was in the 8th grade when we first moved to Carmichael, and then she started attending Victory Christian School in high school. But she was always in my Sunday School class so I got to know her. She always, always was kind to the under dog. She was very popular, everyone loved her but she also never excluded anyone, whether or not they were popular or not. I always felt like your mom truly was a friend. I don’t know if you know but she was my matron of honor at my wedding. Always kind to me and those around her. I remember one birthday she invited me to, I didn’t have much money and she told me she loved Dorritoes and so that is what I got her, a simple bad of Dorritoes yet she was so thankful. We all went to the flea market and had a fun time. Then when it was my sweet sixteen, I wasn’t very popular she gave me a sweet sixteen party, just a few gals but she always was kind to others.
~Becky Stover Manthei

Mom-
You are such a dedicated and hard working person and are always wiling to help in any way u can. You are also the best grandma to my kids that I could ask for, and I am so thankful that I live so close. -~Meg

Kim-I love that you have not given up during some of the most difficult struggles anyone should havt to face. I miss you so much and wish that we were not so far apart. You will be richly blessed in so many ways, just keep taking baby steps forward and never look back! You will always be one of my most beloved best friends!
I love you Kim!!!
~Kellie Powers

What I love most about your mom is no matter how long its been since we’ve seen each other or talked on the phone, we can pick up where we left off. Her encouragement through the hardest time in my life made me feel love when I felt very little. It was an honor to raise our kids together. When I think of Kim, I can’t help but smile because the times we shared over the years make me that happy.
~Darin Brink

 

Mom, I love you! I want you to know you are loved and people FEEL the love you bring.  You are a light to people’s lives.  I am so thankful to be your daughter.  I am proud to be your daughter.  You are fun to live life with.  I love you!

Who will be Love Bombed Next? You will have to wait and see!