poetry

{I will not be shaken}

January 17, 2014 Journal Entry:
I am just a broken-shattered-little girl, grasping for what I think is dear life.  But what I grasp for only numbs the pain until its ready to chuck me back to the ground and start the vicious cycle all over again…

This cannot be the pattern of life.
This is the pattern of death.

That was me 6 months ago, to which I respond.

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I have seen much darkness,
but I know my heart in Yours, I will not be shaken.
Depression has pushed me down, laughed in my face and terrorized my dreams,
but  I know my heart in Yours, I will not be shaken.
Fear has knocked on my door, brought me photos to remind me of the past, and tried to convince me of my future,
but now – I look up to my father in heaven for everything.
I know my heart in yours, I will not be shaken.
I fell down, looked at the cuts, saw the scars, and sighed, 
but you whispered my name, and the strength of your voice lifted me up to my feet.
I know my heart in yours, I will not be shaken,
instead I will show the beauty you have given me for ashes,
and I will glorify your name forever and ever,
amen. 

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Now you’ve got my feet on the life path, all radiant from the shining of your face. Ever since you took my hand, I’m on the right way. {Psalm 16:11}
God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before him. When I got my act together, he gave me a fresh start. Now I’m alert to God’s ways; I don’t take God for granted. Every day I review the ways he works; I try not to miss a trick. I feel put back together, and I’m watching my step. God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes. {Psalm 18:20-24}
Your beauty and love chase after me every day of my life. I’m back home in the house of God for the rest of my life. {Psalm 23:6}
He forgives your sins—every one. He heals your diseases—every one. He redeems you from hell—saves your life! He crowns you with love and mercy—a paradise crown. He wraps you in goodness—beauty eternal. He renews your youth—you’re always young in his presence. {Psalm 103:3-5}
God, you did everything you promised, and I’m thanking you with all my heart. You pulled me from the brink of death, my feet from the cliff-edge of doom. Now I stroll at leisure with God in the sunlit fields of life. {Psalm 56:12-13}

 

 

Slam Poetry – Overcome

Slam Poetry (thank you – def from Urban Dictionary):

n. A style of spoken word poetry that is generally used in a competition, known as a poetry slam. Often, as with hip-hop music, the subject matter concerns urban life, crime, drugs, or other inner-city-related subjects. The difference in many cases, however, is that with slam poetry, the words/lyrics are more introspective and creative than your run-of-the-mill hit rap song. Also seems influenced by the Beat Poets, such as Allen Ginsberg and Jack Kerouac.

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So many things trying to haunt my house
Add shame
Add guilt
Subtract self worth and kidnap my security too.
Trying to fight what ingredients get thrown in my bowl of life. Darkness robbing my sleep tank.
Don’t wake me when I fall, if I fall asleep.
But I need you to shake me from this nightmare.
The darkness chokes me.
I cry for the sun to come.
I’m done fighting
But I’ve never wanted to fight harder.
Push me down
I’ve already eaten my tears; they’ve been my food day and night. What’s it gonna take to break free of destruction?
The oven. The fire.
It burns the impurities right out of my broken and evil heart.
It refines my soul, my thoughts.
Add health. Zest. Buoyancy. Resilience. Truth.
Add Authentic Love.
Subtract the darkness.

It hurts, a lot. It’s hot. It’s uncomfortable.
Its a beautiful disaster. Its new.
I don’t know if I can take anymore.Then the door opens, New life rushes my lungs.
I can breathe.
I’m free.
I’m finished.
He overcame
So that
I
Could
Overcome.
Whom the Son sets free, he is free
indeed.

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