Dreams

{I will not be shaken}

January 17, 2014 Journal Entry:
I am just a broken-shattered-little girl, grasping for what I think is dear life.  But what I grasp for only numbs the pain until its ready to chuck me back to the ground and start the vicious cycle all over again…

This cannot be the pattern of life.
This is the pattern of death.

That was me 6 months ago, to which I respond.

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I have seen much darkness,
but I know my heart in Yours, I will not be shaken.
Depression has pushed me down, laughed in my face and terrorized my dreams,
but  I know my heart in Yours, I will not be shaken.
Fear has knocked on my door, brought me photos to remind me of the past, and tried to convince me of my future,
but now – I look up to my father in heaven for everything.
I know my heart in yours, I will not be shaken.
I fell down, looked at the cuts, saw the scars, and sighed, 
but you whispered my name, and the strength of your voice lifted me up to my feet.
I know my heart in yours, I will not be shaken,
instead I will show the beauty you have given me for ashes,
and I will glorify your name forever and ever,
amen. 

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Now you’ve got my feet on the life path, all radiant from the shining of your face. Ever since you took my hand, I’m on the right way. {Psalm 16:11}
God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before him. When I got my act together, he gave me a fresh start. Now I’m alert to God’s ways; I don’t take God for granted. Every day I review the ways he works; I try not to miss a trick. I feel put back together, and I’m watching my step. God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes. {Psalm 18:20-24}
Your beauty and love chase after me every day of my life. I’m back home in the house of God for the rest of my life. {Psalm 23:6}
He forgives your sins—every one. He heals your diseases—every one. He redeems you from hell—saves your life! He crowns you with love and mercy—a paradise crown. He wraps you in goodness—beauty eternal. He renews your youth—you’re always young in his presence. {Psalm 103:3-5}
God, you did everything you promised, and I’m thanking you with all my heart. You pulled me from the brink of death, my feet from the cliff-edge of doom. Now I stroll at leisure with God in the sunlit fields of life. {Psalm 56:12-13}

 

 

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Challenged to Persevere

In the midst of a storm our minds are busy at work.  We are forming a plan to survive.  Forward or backward, to the right or to the left.  We are forced to move, and the decision is completely ours.
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I have been challenged by my baptism this last week.  It has been a hard, dark week.  Taunted by nightmares, normal blows of life, and hardship.  God is walking me through, but he doesnt force me to do anything, he gives me the free will to make my own choices.

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In my quiet time God reminded me the moment of Sam asking me in the baptism pool, “Why are you getting baptized tonight?”
I responded with “Because I want to serve the Lord my whole life, no matter what happens”.  No matter what happens, I made the decision.

So now on my storm front, I am up against decisions, and I have to decide to follow or fall.
photo I can either fall because I gave up, or I can fall fighting for the name of Jesus.  When I choose to follow him, no matter how hard it hurts, I believe He will lift me back up.  “The only temptation that has come to you is that which everyone has. But you can trust God, who will not permit you to be tempted more than you can stand. But when you are tempted, he will also give you a way to escape so that you will be able to stand it.” (1 Cor 10:13 MSG).
dd73ad2bd86fe21a3b3ee8b07cc87729Friend.  Life is full of storms.  They hurt – this I know.  The waves will knock you down, but they only last a moment.  “So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.” (Rom 12:1-2 MSG).
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This is a hard season but I am holding onto the truth, leaning into the Spirit, and going to immerse myself in the word.  I will overcome & because my words have power I will continue to speak this over my life.  Thank you for your prayers!

Morgie xoxo

A Dream of Hope.

Last night, as I was snoozing away I had a dream.  A dream about my little sister Miss Getty.  Getty has SMA type 1 (Spinal Muscular Atrophy), a disease with no cure, one that often takes the life of the child before they reach the age of 2.  But the research that is going on in the Spinal arena is very close to finding a cure for SMA.  I am still learning more about all these things, but the point is, they are close.
So last night in my dream Miss Getty was about 3 years old.  She was as darling as she has been this entire time just a little older and a little taller.  Right now Getty lies on her side to help her breathe better, so I was holding Getty that way.  And I was talking to her and loving her.  It’s always magical with Getty.  I set her on the couch to go fetch something from the other room and when I returned Getty was sitting up.  Puzzled, I looked at her and said, “Getty girl, we need to get you back on your side little one”.  She hopped off the couch.  I swooped down to pick her up to check on her, to make sure she was breathing.  She was.  I set her down and she hopped off the couch again and took a step towards me.  I kneeled down to her level and took her little hands and shook them a bit.  I was testing her muscle ability.  She just looked at me and smiled.  I could not believe my eyes.  Getty was all better.
I cannot believe how much love I have for Getty.  My heart swells when I think about her.  I am so proud to know such a life changing little girl.  I know that “So and so makes me a better person” is somewhat of a cliche, but only until you experience it.  Getty is a blessing to my life, one I thank God for everyday.  Looking forward to capturing her little face tomorrow 🙂

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Oh Valentine’s Day.

Someday I will look forward to this day : / I look forward to that day.  But for now, this is my reality…and so life will be alright.   I have a lot of cool things to post, but I think I will call it a night.  Up next on the blog: Another race, a friend with a way faster pace, and a bunch of new Team Getty Runners.  Stay tuned ; ) Oh and the Aunthood hits the 1 year anniversary!

"It's A Big World Out There" by: Morgan Saunders

The Big Question is…Answered?

Oh man, I feel for all graduating seniors in college.  The question of, “So what’s next?” … Kill me now.  I even had one person ask me, “what are you even going to do with your life?”  Do I not have hopes and dreams?  Of course I do, but some many things can happen from now until then.
The cool thing for me is that I think the big question has been answered 🙂 I have had a lot of fears about taking this next step after college, but just recently completely felt free of them.  Wow!? I can’t believe it.  So what am I going to do? I am going to apply to attend Hillsong United School of Worship in 2012.  Thank you to all of the people who have affirmed me in going for this and encouraged me.  I am going to give it shot, pray through it, and see what the Lord decides for my life.  If this is not the path, I know he will open up some other doors for me 🙂

Could this be what's in store for 2012? Photo by photobucket.com