I am on such a journey right now. And God is revealing more and more of himself to me. And today my revelation is that I must not forget what He’s done, but that I will remember. And that when I start to question God and his involvement in my life he says, “Just remember.”
You see, I believe that Jesus died for me. Why? Because He loved me. Because I had sin in my life, and as a child of God, he wanted me back. This separation from him is real, but now its gone. And when I got baptized in water, it meant that I had died to my old life and risen with a new life in Him, beautiful symbolism. I decided that no matter what happened, I would live my life for Him. He has given me life in more ways than one. But he didn’t just die for me. He died for everyone. He died for you.
So today, I want to do something (not on my own, but with His help, as if I was holding his hand) that set some people free, because he didn’t just die for me, he died for the people that hurt me too.
I want to forgive the man that sexually abused me. I want him to know that he has been forgiven.
There is no way I could do this just as Morgan. I am forgiving him because of Jesus and in Jesus name and with the help of Jesus. And there is power in his name, which allows me to write this out.
So I pray he finds this post below:
I want to say I forgive you for the pain you caused me, when I realized what you had done to me over many years was wrong. When the truth hit my mind, I suddenly found myself in an exhaustible cycle of pain. I had a hard time in school, and I had a hard time living, and I’m still unwinding the damage, but even so, I forgive you. I want to forgive you for the damage you caused in my relationships with my sister and cousins and best friends. We lost some precious years because we were on a journey of pain, walking through unmerited shame, with broken down boundaries . I want to forgive you for what you made us go through in court, it was a taste of hell on earth for all of us, but I forgive you. I want to forgive you for the pain you caused my family. The pain you especially caused my parents, because it trickled down to the rest of us, and it wasn’t their fault. I want to forgive you for the guilt my parents felt when they thought they didn’t protect us, that was your fault, but I want to forgive you for it. I want to forgive you for the damage you caused my mind when you lied to me, I forgive you for the inability I have to trust others, because of all the trust you broke with us. I forgive you for not standing up and telling the truth about what happened. And I also want to forgive your wife who hurt me by staying with you while we lived under the abuse. I forgive you for the time I lost with her. You are forgiven. The end. No resentment, no grudge. I want to be set free like I was intended to, and I was nudged by God as he reminded me that you are equally his child and didn’t deserve this freedom either, but he still gave it to us. You are still a child of God, but you need to accept His forgiveness, and be set free. As much as my flesh wants to hate you forever, because I write this through my tears, the enemy has been defeated and I am called to forgive, as I have been forgiven. So I hope you are set free from the chains the enemy has placed on you, let us deny the enemy his pleasure. I declare you free in the name of Jesus and by his blood, be set free. God meets us half way, he doesn’t force anything on us. He gave us a choice. I pray that you walk the other half, he is waiting! Amen.