A lyric in a new song at church caused my heart to stop and think a few weeks ago. The line speaking of our mighty God sang, “strong through every trial”. The word “trial” stopped me in my worship and suddenly my mind went back to the trial in court that 7 other girls and I had been through almost 5 years ago.
It was a very dark time. On a worldly level, the man who sexually abused us over many many years got away free and clean. A couple fines here, some community service there. On a worldly level, my heart aches, bad. I felt a huge sense of injustice, and for years there has been a wound of defeat and a lingering fear that he’s still out there; as though our cries for help meant nothing. But when I heard this song, and was surfing back through the emotions of the trial, the feelings of defeat and the constant flow of pain, it all began to be replaced with the words “strong through every trial”. My heart was still.
Though we knew the truth of what happened to us, it felt like our eyes were covered to the truth of what was really happening. No amount of darkness can hide the Lord and his power and his strength and his goodness. No court case, judge, defending attorney or jurors can say what our God does. And he wins. We had the truth, we were set free. The truth is light. And the light is God. “The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overpowered it” (John 1:5) Nor will it ever. The freedom we have is walking in the light and so we are blessed. WE ARE FREE. The battle was not ours to fight, it was Gods. In his hands, He replaces our fear with his perfect love.
A huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders. I feel lighter already. It is not about the justice that man gives on earth. We keep our eyes heavenward because under His care we are taken care of, in EVERY situation. No longer do I have to worry about my enemies, “God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever”(ps 73:26). Every trial, He is strong. Acknowledge him and watch as your chains melt to the ground. Be set free lovely people. What more do we need? The victory through HIM is ours. Claim it baby, claim it.
“Love and truth belong to God’s people;
goodness and peace will be theirs.”
keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from telling lies.
Turn from evil and do good;
SEEK peace and pursue it.
The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
and his ears are attentive, to their cry;
Don’t ever forget kindness and truth. Wear them like a necklace. Write them on your heart as if on a tablet.