For the last week and a half, I have been breaking out in hives. They started on my legs and are creeping to my lower back, side, and arms. I have blamed this on stress and deemed it natural considering I will be moving across the world in exactly two weeks.
But I am tired of finding them all over my body. Today I see these as a reminder of what happens when you try to control your own life.
I have 2 weeks till I move across the world. I am trying to make every second count, get in every last goodbye, make every last memory. I am suffocating the control of every detail through my clenched fist, and it’s not working out so great.
Last night in the shower I was in deep thought. I don’t want to be in control and try to plan out every detail. I want and I need God to, because right now I’m just stressing and breaking out in hives.
So I took the hives as a reminder to daily turn over the reigns in prayer, and to keep trusting. All I have to do is put one foot in front of the other, and soon I’ll be walking across Sydney’s airport to pick up my luggage. This is probably the hardest thing I will ever do in my life, but:
Morgan, praying for you to relax and not stress about your move. Remember in the journey to “enjoy the ride”. It is not just about the end point. I can tell from your pics that you are spending time with friends and “filling up your tank” for the long trip. Enjoy this time as much as you can, be in the moment with your friends and let them love you. Mostly, let God love you during this time.
Thank you so much. I am learning so much. God is really challenging me to lean in to him, and not myself. Its hard, but good for me 🙂 Five days. Definitely in the “Filling up the tank” stage 🙂 I can’t believe how close take off is!