Going to Hillsong seems like a grand adventure. I wonder what the Lord is going to do through this experience. I have grown to accept the fact that I won’t see or touch my family or close friends for a year, that my niece and nephew may not recognize/like me when I return, and that I will be spending Christmas alone. But there is one little girl in my life that I cannot bear to leave. My heart aches every time I think about not seeing her for a year. My mind and my heart toss and turn and I realize it might be the hardest thing I will ever do. So tonight I just don’t want to think about it. But I needed to get that off my chest. I hope to talk to her mom and pops about it soon, but I just can’t face the fact yet.